12.12.14 – I Will Follow
I know there’s something just beyond the headlights
somebody i’m supposed to be
i know there’s got to be a reason that I’m here
but right now it’s so hard to see
this road feels like it’s leading me nowhere
but nowhere is still somewhere you want me to be
I wrote those words over 10 years ago. They were the start of the song “I Will Follow” and the start of my christian music career. I had no idea where God was going to take me or my talents. I knew that i needed to get out of the musical life that i was leading. For those of you who don’t know, before i started this i was “the wedding singer” with over 1200 weddings under my belt, i could perform & run a wedding blindfolded. it was a living for a while and a lot of fun but man did it get boring and monotonous. there’s only so many times you can play YMCA & Disco Inferno before it takes its toll….
So i decided that i wanted to leave that behind and be dave pettigrew in the world, representing what i believed in. I wanted to lead people closer to Jesus.
that first verse of “I Will Follow” was basically a prayer. i didn’t know what God had in store for me and to be perfectly honest, i still don’t. every day i live these words. roads that i take feel like they lead me nowhere….but in every nowhere, there is someone there that needed me there, that needed to the hear the words i spoke or the phrase that was sung.
God wants us in the nowhere’s. He wants us to feel lost sometimes. being lost makes us depend more on Him and lean more on Him. if we knew where we were going all the time, where would our dependency on God fit in? there are many nights when myself and the band feel like nothing is happening. where we ask the question, “why did we even show up tonight?” then, inevitably, i’ll get an email or a phone call, or someone will reference that night and say that it was life-changing for them. that one phrase or verse that i said, or one song that the band played, changed their whole outlook. the lesson that is always learned….God uses us even when we don’t think He’s using us. He’s always working behind the scenes. We need to keep our eyes open and watch Him work in and around us…….heavy.
matthew 28:20 – i am with you always, even to the end of the age.
Jesus promises us that He’ll be with us, no matter what. He’s the something beyond the headlights, He’s the somebody we’re supposed to be, He’s the reason that we’re here. He has put us on the path that we’re currently on. yes, we can make wrong turns, detours, we can hit dead ends but in the end, He’s with us wherever we go.
i got a few emails over the past month from a few folks that are really struggling, that are really trying to find a way through certain situations and feeling that God is nowhere in the mix. Agreed, frustrating without a doubt, but….God will never leave us or forsake us. He is with us till the end of the age. That is a promise that our heavenly Father makes to us.
proverbs 30: 5-6 – every promise of God proves true, He protects those who run to Him for help.
jeremiah 31:3 – He love us with an everlasting love.
I know it may feel like the road you’re on is leading you nowhere….but God wants us in the nowhere sometimes. These seasons of life teach us, teach those we come in contact with and make us stronger. My prayer is that we all see the God in every situation that He puts us in. That we will seek His will, seek his guidance and then when He does show us the way, we will follow. Prayers up for us all.