10.17.14 – The Weekly Walk. Closer.
Thanks for your thoughts & feedback on the last post regarding the song, Teach Me How To Drive. it’s amazing to see how this music relates to so many different aspects of our lives.
This week I wanted to walk through the second cut on the album “Somebody I’m Supposed To Be”. It’s called “Closer To You” and from the first opening lines, it’s a very tough song to write about, sing & listen to at times….
Sometimes I feel like You’re a thousand miles away
And deep inside I fight this war
The phone line must be down, do You hear me when I pray
Or am I just a thorn that you ignore.
The struggle continues. We continue to search for & need God, even when it seems like he’s not listening.
We’ve been playing this song out for over 9 years now. The response that I’ve gotten has been really incredible. Emails & conversations at shows have been deep. This is a song that I wrote down on paper, played through the opening lines & chorus, and then basically threw into the trash can. I didn’t think this would resonate with anyone. Then the more that I thought about it, I thought about how much it resonated with me. Surely there are others out there who feel the same way.
I didn’t base this on scripture at all when it was written. Since then I’ve found numerous Psalms that have this concept included within the text. The song could easily be based on Psalm 77. The Psalmist pleads with the Lord;
“I cried out to God for help, I cried out to God to hear me.
When I was in distress, I sought the Lord; at night I stretched out untiring hands,
And I would not be comforted.”
After a friend hipped me to this scripture, it all made sense. This struggle has been going on for thousands of years. People crying out to God, yearning for answers, for responses, for any kind of input into their lives. Myself included. Sometimes it’s frustrating being a Christian. Sometimes God doesn’t answer, or let me put it this way, sometimes God doesn’t answer the way that we want him to answer.
I was reading Brennan Manning the other day. This really kind of sums it up “Because we approach the Gospel with preconceived notions of what it should say rather than what it does say, the Word no longer falls like rain on the parched ground of our souls”. Heavy, heavy words. So true. Hard to admit, but when we get down to it, truth.
The chorus of the song goes on to plead:
Are you really listening, are you really there
Do you have the answers, do you really care
I’m lost inside a maybe, what else can I do
Help me find a way, lead me closer to You
So this is the bottom line. Being drawn closer to God even though sometimes it feels like He’s nowhere near us. I approach this in another song as well called “Even If Not”. We are here, God is up there.
It’s not until we believe that He is here with us, that he’ll start working with us. We need to exercise our faith to grow. We need to communicate with God more. This is a two way conversation. I can say with conviction, that He is here. Even on the days when it feels like He’s not. He is. Walking with us, walking beside us. Take the time, daily, to be drawn closer to Him. Read the bible more, spend more time in prayer. Worship more. Change will come.
I pray that each of us is drawn closer & closer as we let God permeate our daily walk.
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